Part 1

Chapter 1

Why do I live here in this so called Victory Mansion? It smells of boiled cabbage and old rag mats. The elevator does not even work. But what I find most disturbing are the huge posters that say Big Brother is watching you. I feel like I am being watched all the time. One thing I am sure about is that I am being watched in my room by the tele-screen. The most private place in the world and I am still being watched. One very interesting thing happened at work today during the two minutes of hate. Speaking of of hate I hate that dark hair woman with the freckles and perfect figure. I hate how she is attractive but yet she is part of a Junior Anti sex League. Someone that good looking should not be allowed to join those leagues. Anyways what happened during the two minutes of hate while I was yelling and screaming at the tele-screen along with my fellow coworkers I looked back at O'Brien and for a split second I feel that him and me are thinking the same thing and that we were reading each others mind.

Chapter 2

I wonder if the thought police will find out about what I am doing. Or... do they already know? Are they waiting for a perfect time to strike? One thing I am sure about is that I must be more careful. Mrs. Parsons looked awfully mysterious today. Was she spying on me? I wonder if she saw my diary and saw what I wrote in it from across the room. Maybe her children called me a traitor because she told them about my diary and how it said "DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER" over and over again. I must be more careful around her. One thing I just can't get off of my mind are the dreams that I keep on having. Why do I keep on having dreams about O'Brien? Is he a friend or an enemy? And why do I feel like him and me have a connection and are thinking about the same things? I must find out.

Chapter 3

Why can I not remember my family? Shouldn't I be able to remember my family? Isn't family supposed to remind me of good times and about the people I love? If that is true then why can't I remember everything about my family? I can only remember small parts of my family. I remember small parts of my parents but I only remember the big eyes my sister had. One thing that has bothered me is that I feel that they died tragically, and that it is my fault. I do not know why I feel like this but I simply do. I also remember how this place was called London but to me it is still called London. I remember how when I was small there were bombing and my parents and me were running to some place safe. I don't remember if my sister was born back then. I remember the air raids and how people were panicking. The Ministry says that they invented airplanes but I know that they are lying because airplanes were made way before the Ministry started. That shows that they lie to the people but I can not prove anything because there is no evidence to prove that I am right. Now I must get back to doing my exercises.

Chapter 4

Another day of work. I feel so trapped In my desk. I feel like the walls are closing in on me more and more. As dull as this place is I must confess that I enjoy my work. It is the only place where I can lose my mind into something. What I find the most interesting in this dull place is the paper disposal. For some reason it is called the memory hole but it is the exact opposite of a memory hole. Instead of storing information it destroys anything that is dropped into it. What I find disturbing is how the party always seem to have to be right about everything. I think that the party rewrites everything and make things up just to make it seem that they and Big Brother are always right. Anyways I must get back to my work I have many papers to look through.

Chapter 5

Why doesn't anyone have razor blades anymore? Why is it so hard to get some. I haven't really thought about it until Syme brought that subject up. I suppose that he is my friend, but now a days you can't trust anyone. I suppose that in the past it was the same. In my opinion Syme thinks to much. He should just do what he is supposed to do without asking or thinking about it, besides its what's best for him. If he keeps on thinking about things the thought police will come and get him. One thing that is for sure is that he is very smart. He is very interesting to talk to. He predicts that by the year 2050 the dictionary would contain only one word, and I agree with him. The Party is capable of reducing the dictionary to one word so people are not able to communicate with each other. Syme must be careful or one day he might disappear and I must be careful as well. The dark hair girl that I see at my job has been following me and watching me for the last few days. She might be a member of the Thought Police and might be spying on me. One thing that I am sure about is that I must be very careful.

Chapter 6

While writing in my diary I remembered something that happened about three years ago that I can't forget, but I don't know why. I remembered when I met with a prostitute, I don't know why I thought about it, I just did. Why I did it? I do not know, it just seemed irresistible to me at that time. But at the same time I thought about my ex wife Katherine, well my wife Katherine. We are not divorced because the party does not allow it but we are separated. At the time I met with the prostitute I was still with Katherine and honestly I didn't feel bad about cheating on her. Every time I had sex with her I felt that she tried to push me away and every time we had sex she didn't call it sex, she called it "Our duty to the Party". To me she was a human sound track.

Chapter 7

In order for the Party to fall the Proles must rebel. The Proles are the only ones capable to rebel. The Party finds them ignorant so they don't bother to keep an eye on them. One of the Party's slogan even says "Proles and animals are free". One thing I would want to know is why no one seems to remember the past. To me the Party has somehow found a way to get rid of peoples memories or they have either gotten rid of any evidence of the past.

Chapter 8

I still don't get how the proles can sense when a rocket is about to hit. Rockets supposedly travel faster than sound but the proles are still able to sense them. I also noticed how the only event the proles pay attention to is the lottery. I talked to this old man and tried to get some information about the past but I did not succeed. One thing that looked fascinating to me was the paper weight I found in a small shop. The paperweight was made of glass and had a piece of coral inside of it. I also had another dream about O' Brien and this time he told me that we would meet in the place where there is no darkness. I don't know what that means but I feel that I will soon find out.

Part 2

Chapter 1

What is her name? I must know her name. The black hair girl. I can't believe she gave me that note and actually meant what she rote. She must have planed that very well. At first I thought she was a member of the Thought Police and was giving me a note about them arresting me. I never thought that she of all people would give me a note that said "I love you". I can't believe that I got a chance to talk to her and I can't believe that we are meeting soon. But maybe it could be a trap. Maybe she is part of the Thought Police. But even if she is I am still willing to take the risk to meet up with her.

Chapter 2

Julia. Julia, that is her name. Julia. I met with her for the first time. I can't get stop thinking about her young soft body. My dream actually came true. She is different from anyone that I have ever met. She to rebels against the Party and Big Brother. Julia, she is one of a kind.

Chapter 3

Julia, how I miss her already. But soon we will meet again. I like everything about her, but what I like about her the most is the the amount of men she has been with. The more men she has been with the more I like her because it shows how many times she has rebelled against Big Brother. She works for the Junior Anti - Sex League but is not actually part of it. She also works in the Fiction Department. To me she is the most positive person that I have ever met. Everything that is negative she finds a way to make it positive. I like everything about her.

Chapter 4

Mr. Charrington is such a nice man. He let me use the room above his shop so me and Julia can meet there. Its not the nicest room but as long as I get to see Julia I am fine with it. When Julia and I met at Mr. Charrington's place the most horrible thing happened to me, I saw a ........ rat. The most horrendous thing in the world. It also reminded me about a dream that I had, a dream were I was standing in front of a wall and something dreadful was behind it but, I didn't know what it was. But my day wasn't all bad. Something happened to me that I never thought would happen. Before Julia and I met at Mr. Charrington's place she said that she couldn't go. At first I was angry and felt that she was cheating me, but then I felt her hand touch mine. At that moment I felt something different I felt a deep tenderness inside me. At that moment I wished that Julia and I were a married couple, I felt love. I wished that Julia would only be mine, that she would me my Julia.

Chapter 5

What I predicted had came true, Syme had vanished. His name was erased from the Chess Committee but everything was still the same. It felt like he never existed, like he was never there. The Thought Police had probably gotten him and right at this moment he is probably in the ministry of love. A new poster had appeared all over london, it was a poster of a Eurasian soldier. Why the party chose to put those posters up? I do not know. Something unusual has been happening. The rockets have been killing more Proles than usual, I wished I knew why. Anyways I met with Julia again, again and again. I love being with her. If I could I would be with her all day.

Chapter 6

It finally happened I talk to O'Brien! It wasn't a long talk but I got a chance to talk to him. He told me he wanted to meet wit me and then he gave me his address. There was no need to hide it because he wrote it down in front of the telescreen. He talked about showing me a new dictionary but I think there might be a secret message inside of it. Sooner or later I must go to his house to find out.

Chapter 7

I had a dream about my mother and sister. I dreamed about the day that I stole the piece of chocolate from my sister and ran away. My mom was yelling my name but I still ran, little did I know that would be the last time that I would ever see them. When I went back home I couldn't find my mom or sister. Then I woke up crying. To me the Proles are the closest we have to human beings because they are free to do what they want. I asked Julia if she has ever thought that we should stop seeing each other before we got caught and she said yes. But she said that she is not going to do it no matter what. Then we promised each other that no matter what we will never betray one another or stop loving one another.

Chapter 8

Julia and I finally met with O'Brien. What I found to be amazing was that O'Brien was able to turn off the telescreen. We talked about the Party, Big Brother Goldstein and the Brotherhood. I found out that Goldstein and the Brotherhood was real and that O'Brien was part of the Brotherhood. Now we to were part of the Brotherhood. O'Brien told me that someone would send me Golsteins book and that I was to read it. Before I left I asked O'Brien if he knew an old rhyme that began, Oranges and lemons, say the bells of ST. Clements's. To my surprise he did and he said, "Oranges and lemons, say the bells of ST. Clements's, You owe me three farthings, say the bells of ST.Martin's, When will you pay me? say the bells of Old Baily, When I grow rich, say the bells of Shoreditch."

Chapter 9

I got the book but did not look at it right away. I looked at when I got to Mr. Charrington's place while I waited for Julia. I read the first chapter, Ignorance is Strength and the third chapter, War is Peace. Most of what I read I already knew. When Julia came I told her that I had the book but she did not show much interest in the book. I read to her but later she fell asleep. I find this book to be fascinating. I only wish that I could have met Goldstein in person.

Chapter 10

I can't believe it actually happened. I can't believe that they caught us. I can't believe that Mr. Charrington is part of the Thought Police, and I thought he was a nice man. Why did I trust him? One minute Julia and I are watching a lady sing and the next we are surrounded by the Thought Police. Where will they take us? What are they going to do to us? Can this day get any worse? We are dead, we are truly dead.

Part 3

Chapter 1

Where am I? How long have I been in here? What time is it? Where is Julia? Ugh I'm so hungry. Who was that lady next to me? She could have been my mother. I would do anything just so I could get some food right now. I can't believe that of all people Parsons is in here to .I would have expected him to be the last person in here. What is room 101 and why does everyone seem to be terrified from it. What shocked me was that O'Brien walked in and I couldn't believe that they got him to.

Chapter 2

My whole body hurts. How many times I have got beaten up I do not know. All I know is that I am in a great amount of pain. What is O'Brien, is he my friend or my enemy? I thought he was part of the Brotherhood. Why is he trying to make me believe lies? Why does he insist that two and two make five? It does not! Most of all why won't he tell me what is in room 101?

Chapter 3

This place is horrible. I have been reduced to nothing. Both my hair and teeth are falling. I can see my ribs. I smell like a goat. What have they done to me? They have kicked me, punched me, torture me and have made betrayed evthing and everyone that I know. Everyone Except... What have they done to Julia? Is she going through the same pain as I am? Is she... no she can't be. One thing is for sure, no matter what they do they will never make me betray Julia.

Chapter 4

How long has it been, I do not know. But I am getting back to normal. I am getting fatter and stronger everyday. They have even given me a new set of dentures. I can't believe how weak I am. I can't even do one push up. I know that soon I will regain my strength. I had a dream about Julia and I accidently screamed out her name. I knew that I was going to be punished for that outburst, but howI did not know. All of a sudden O'Brien walked in, asked me some questions and said, "Room 101".

Chapter 5

No, it can't be. What have I done? I did what they wanted me to do from the begining. I can't believe I gave in. It was too much I chouldn't take it anymore. Those horrendous things made me do it, they made me. I can't get rid of there smell, the sound they make, I can't stop thinking about them. Why did I give in? Why? Julia I am sorry. I am sorry I betrayed you. I am sorry my love.

Chapter 6

I sat there in the cafe. Alone. Listening to the telescreen. I started to remember that when I was a little boy I played a game with my mom and sister and that we were all happy. But I knew that it wasn't real, it never happened, I just made it up. I finally saw her. I saw her at the park. I hardly reconized her. Julia. My Julia. I put my arm around her waist but she did not respond. We sat there at the park on a bench talking about how we betrayed one another. Before she left I told her that we should meet again and she agreed. But will we ever see each other again I do not know. I guess War is Peace, Ignorance is Strength, Freedom is Slavery and that two and two does actually make five. I don't know why I actually decided to rebel against the Party and Big Brother. They have saved me from myself and I should be thankful for that. I now know that I truly love Big Brother.